QUIET MOMENT

Hello God, I called tonight
To talk a little while
I need a friend who'll listen
To my anxiety and trial.

You see, I can't quite make it
Through a day just on my own...
I need your love to guide me,
So I'll never feel alone.

I want to ask you please to keep,
My family and friends, safe and sound.
Come and fill their lives with confidence
For whatever fate they're bound.

Give me faith, dear God, to face
Each hour throughout the day,
And not to worry over things
I can't change in any way.

I thank you God, for being home
And listening to my call,
For giving me such good advice
When I stumble and fall...

Your number, God, is the only one
That answers every time.
I never get a busy signal,
Never had to pay a dime.

So thank you, God, for listening
To my troubles and my sorrow.
Good night, God, I love You , too,
And I'll call again tomorrow!

P.S. Please bless all my friends and family too.

DROWNING

Life's a Dance... so watch where you're stepping on

I'm not doing so well, currently. Both my brother, Jerrard and his gf (CJ, who is staying with us) are jobless, having quit their positions. Jerrard coz he just couldn't handle work (he's spoilt!) and CJ because the company wanted to cut her pay by RM300 just so that they can give higher remunerations to the company directors. RM300 is basically 20% of her current salary! Blame it on Eden. That food catering corp.

So.. grocery shopping, travel fares and car fuel now all falls on me. And the house bills. I spend A LOT on bills, especially since we have Broadband and Cable TV. Doesn't that suck?! I didn't ask to be landed with these two, in the first place. All I wanted was a place to call my own... not a home full of dependants.

Worse still, I'm getting more and more stressed with my job. The workload keeps getting worse, and the company is intending to increase the services profile... without expanding the work force! That means.. we get new clients, provide the same level of service to a wider and bigger scope... with the same amount of people currently working here. It's crazy! A little while, I'm required to test a new system that's to be launched by July 1st 2008... ten minutes later, I have to submit a proposal which is due by tha afternoon... and when it's 5.30pm, everyones goes home but I'm still at my desk finishing up yesterday's deadline.

But you know what's the WORST part??? I feel OBLIGED to stay with this job UNTIL everything is settled and running smoothly. I FEEL OBLIGED. It's like... "Jen will save the day!"..."Jen is the Team Leader. She must lead!" , or... "Sacrifice yourself for the sake of the better good!"

Isn't my happiness, the much "better good"??

I am VERY confused.I am so confused.. it's like having a split personality. I argue with myself. Not with my friends.. not with my brother. I don't even tell anyone.

And now, I rant it on my blog!

WHAT AM I DOING ?

It's 2 a.m. and I haven't gone to bed. What am I doing right now?

Listening to Sarah Brightman's Harem CD, and watching the Chinese New Year fireworks outside my window. And surfing the net.

Seriously, fireworks at 2.00 in the morning, right in front of me!

It's Friday tomorrow! Happy (belated) Valentine's Day, peeps!

The fireworks were meager. Not like this awesome picture.

CLASSIC EPIC SPOOF

The new movie this week is "Meet the Titans". Oh greatttt... another spoof of an epic movie. Thanks to the people who brought us the Scary Movies quartet, Epic Movie, and Date Movie, looks like Meet The Titans will just be another low-skank pokking fun at the celeb world.

These people are so desperate to get a box office record that they do the lowest form of plagerism. Take a great movie scene and turn give it sex, blood and slap-stick, one laugh jokes.

Off course, it doesn't hurt to entartain too.

So, what if these same ppl took a great classis like, The Ten Commandments, and turned it into a modern day spoof?

Frightening!